Written By: Besan
In society talking about certain topics are taboo, especially on divorce. This stigma needs to break. So I decided to share a part of my story.
I was drowning in this world. I was confused, lost, scared, and questioning everything around me after my divorce ( almost 5 yrs ago). I didn’t know what to do or what will happen to me next. I walked around with a smile and no one knew I was hurting in the process.
I was angry about what happened to me. I was ready to confront those who hurt me and ask them:” Why?”
Then, I realized it wasn’t worth the battle. It wasn’t worth holding a grudge, being mad, or worth confronting. So, I decided to work on myself, stay silent, become stronger, and get closer to my creator. Because He knows what happened to me and knew exactly what I was feeling and going through in my marriage and knew exactly how I felt after it was over.
I decided to educate myself & seek knowledge about my faith. And with my genuine and kind heart, I learned how to forgive. I learned the meaning of growth.
I decided that I don’t need mankind to help me because Allah helped me get through my hardship alone. He taught me patience. Even though I was hurting. He gave me ease in the process. Allah changed my ways of thinking & day by day guided me to Him.
I am grateful for Allah’s guidance. I raised my hands & made lots of Duaa for his guidance, forgiveness & help daily. Allah tests you with hardships not to hurt you, but to cure you and heal you. Allah is Ar-Rahman Ar-Raheem.
Subhan Allah. Never thought I would be the person I am today. I am grateful for my hardships. I learned that the best lessons in life are the most painful ones & you will get hurt, but the lessons will give you valuable wisdom.
“My heart is at ease knowing that what was meant for me will never miss me and what misses me was never meant for me.” – Omar Ibn Khattab-
I am sharing my own experiences to help others know to never give up and stay strong, work on your relationship with Allah. He won’t forget you. He will guide you.
Raise your hands and ask Him. Work on yourself & healing. Trust me in time everything will eventually make sense to you.
Alhumduallah.
By: Besan
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